Is there any love between lovers?

Is there a real difference between love and being in-love?

Is there a way to make love a finite concept?

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There's a real challenge for me to choose between being an all-consuming consumer and your vogue, holier-than-most, self-effacing public servant of the world.

To be a consumer, the most basic of necessities would be of course currency. Paper, credit, signed, debit, allowance, monthly pay, bonuses, incentives. There's not much of that going around these days but I am surprised of the number of nice, tagged things that I have stuffed in a closet that I rarely open. I am a consumer in every sense of the world and I have come to accept that branded things are beautiful things and with that comes the bigger and harder acceptance that beautiful things are not cheap. Im currently lusting for the Tiffany ID, the necklace with the lock right beside the ID tag and the bracelet that is a miniature of the necklace. If Santa would grant me one gift this Christmas, I would ask for Marie Antoinette's pearls set in sapphire and rubies. I have to be good til the day I die.

To be a public servant, I would have to survive with the bare essentials. Shelter, food, clothing and a little bit (okay, alot) of affection. I have a dream, you see. I found out during my last trip to Puerto Prinsesa that there is such a thing as UN Volunteers Group (check it: www.unv.org). As the name suggests, it is purely voluntary with exciting risks and delicious incentives. I'd be more than happy to teach democracy to disenfranchised Afghan village-folk. I don't neccessarily think that Democracy is the global solution but it is a solution nonetheless. Just because it's voluntary doesn't mean that anyone can get in, it is just the United Nations. They require 5+ years of experience in specific fields which means that I should get started soon lest old age would eat me up alive. If I start taking the experience now, I wouldn't be as phat paid as I am with my current dead-end job. Goodbye beautiful, expensive things.

So, should I help the world or buy the world?